It is one of those days. There has been a gray gloom hovering over New England this past week. The temperature has not gone above 40 degrees and the chill in the damp air seems permanent. I am not impressed. Who knows if the bulb flowers will actually bloom this year? They had started to pop up weeks ago only to be covered with a layer of icy snow that just wouldn’t melt. And though the snow is all but gone, their fate is still unknown. As April approaches, only days away, the bone chilling temperatures remain…accompanied by rain. What I wouldn’t do for a patch of blue sky and a 70 degree day!
My will for indoor activities is fading and my patience is growing thin. It’s times like these I feel like I am losing the good fight. Poor O must feel couped up like a chicken without a barn yard or a cow without a pasture. (We’ve been playing Farm a lot!). He is such an outdoor boy, but I just can’t bring myself to brave the drizzle and chill. He wants to be outside playing in the dirt. (Well, it’s mud right now). He whines. I want to scream. So I call my husband at work and whine to him about my day’s plight. It doesn’t make me feel better because I know I am being ridiculous. Yet, it takes everything in me NOT to turn on PBS Kids and get on with MY day.
We color. We do stickers. We read. We play with Legos. We build a garage for his cars. He empties the utensil drawer in the kitchen. I check the clock. It only 10:02!!!! Holy Crap! There are still two more hours til lunch! How am I gonna get through this day?? I know I am not the only mother stuck in the house on a rainy frigid morning with her toddler! Why does it feel like I am? Because that is motherhood. We are this incredibly resourceful army of women who collectively are going through pretty much the same things, and yet we feel isolated. Because on days like today, who the hell wants to brave the weather? Who wants to sit on an icy bench at the playground and watch my child go down the slide while my butt cheeks freeze off? Not this lacking Mama. I need to curl up under a blanket with a cup of hot tea.
I always find this time of year the most challenging. Winter seems to hang on, out staying its welcome. By this point, were all pretty much sick of anything pumpkin. And the romance of hibernating with all that Danish hygge has hit the annoying point. You can only light so many candles! The novelty of winter is gone. Add a stir crazy toddler to that recipe and you get what I call, “One of those days.” I can only hope it doesn’t last.
So that’s where I’m at. I basically just want to complain. Pretty much like my son. I want to will the warmer weather to take hold. I want to bask in some freakin sunshine. I want to be hot! (Who’da thought, huh?) So Mother Nature, hear me now. As one of the leading Mothers of this earth, you need to lend your earthly sisters a helping hand. I can only imagine I speak for many mothers when I say, we are getting to the end of our ropes here. Bring on the warm weather! Inspire us to frolic outdoors with our children. Invite us to lay on the warm grass and gaze at the cloudscape. Implore us to plant seeds and watch them grow. It’s time. Thank you.
Until next time, keep fighting the good fight, and remember, behind every great kid is a mom who is pretty sure she is screwing it up. Thanks for reading friend! Namaste.