My to do list has hit overload. Our yard is a disaster. I am on duty to fix every Lego demolition and Troublesome Truck mishap for the foreseeable future. (Mothers of little boys will understand). Yet, on this Mother’s Day weekend, I feel compelled to take some time to express my gratitude for the greatest gift life has bestowed upon me. Yup. Motherhood. A gift, you say? Oh yes, indeed.
With all the whining, crying, puking, and so on, I still, undoubtedly, LOVE, that I get to be O’s mom. I have said it before, but it bears repeating. This is the best job I have ever had. And to top it off, there is a day set on the calendar to celebrate it! To honor it! What? It’s like winning the lottery and then someone sets out a day to bring you another boatload of cash. I am sure there are some mommys out there thinking “Here she goes. Jacked out on Baby Magic again! Freaking Pollyanna Mommy!” Can’t help it though. I’m just super happy.
I can’t help but wonder if I am happy BECAUSE I understand what a privilege it is to be a mother. It’s like the rules of gratitude and happiness. One really begets the other. What’s that facebook meme I often see on my feed? The happiest people are not the ones who have everything, but are the ones who believe they do. Motherhood seems to be a lot like that. I’m sure it isn’t about having a super awesome child, as we ALL do!! (Am I right?) I find it very hard to stay stuck in the “poop” of the day, so to speak, when it is so joyous being around my little guy. He’s hilarious. And sweet. And ingenious. And so fun to be around (99% of the time). I choose to deal with the 1% of bad and focus on the awesome rest. Truly, none of it is actually bad. That’s the wrong word. A more apt word would be difficult. But, anything worthwhile has its difficult moments.
It’s funny, but motherhood is nothing like I thought. It is so so much better. To be a mother is the most rewarding job, the biggest challenge and the greatest joy of my life. It gives my life a meaning I didn’t know existed. I thank O everyday for choosing me to be his mother. Maybe when he is older I will bring him breakfast in bed and get him a special gift on Mother’s Day…. Oh please! I’m not THAT cracked out on Baby Magic! I’ll let him think the day is about me. But I’ll always think to myself how lucky I am to be his Mommy. Always.
Happy Mother’s Day! Thanks for reading! Keep fighting the good fight, and remember, behind every great kid is a mom who is pretty sure she is screwing it up! Xoxox